Jitters

I don't know why I'm so nervous. I had a great loss this week, but I'm nervous about next week. I don't know if it's because I feel like I won't be able to do well, or if it's just because I just want to keep up the momentum. And by momentum, I just mean to keep losing. Doesn't matter how much, just keep loosing. I can't stress how happy I am that it's getting warmer outdoors now. I need to be able to walk around with out a heavy coat. The warm weather is an opportunity for me to become more active. I gotta admit though, I'm not looking forward to looking around and seeing all the women that can wear all the cool stuff, and I can't. I'll just use the desire to wear what they do as motivation and get on the job of losing this weight. I am kinda amped tho... just excited about getting to a healthy normal weight.

Don't laugh at me, but I am scared about one thing. I hope I don't have loose skin hanging all over the place when I loose the weight. That would be soooooo unattractive. I'm gonna have to find someone to pay for me to have surgery and fix all that. Can't be walking around with wings on my arm, breast looking like feeding bags for horses, and saddlebags on my thighs. :( Ewwwwww... So .. not... sexy.