The Journey Continues

Good Morning All,

I had to take a break from posting. I've been kinda down for a while. A lot of emotional things going on. And with all that, I allowed it to effect my eating. Essentially, I gained back every pound I lost, and then some. I really have been unmotivated lately... and I'm really working on that. I'm getting to the point where I feel trapped in my own body, and I never felt that way before. Weird thing is, I'm finally beginning to see myself for what I am. A fat person. As weird as it sounds, I never really saw myself that way. It's kinda like I had shades over my eyes which distorted my view of myself. I didn't see me like others see me. I would see a picture of myself, but be in total denial about how big I really am.

I'm trying to pull out of this, but I'm starting to feel like I can't. I feel stuck, like no matter how much I move about, I can't change it. It's like I'm in quicksand and sinking really fast. I know some of this may sound weird.. but it's really where I'm at. I mean, I'm making some changes here and there, to get myself back to where I need to be... but my confidence in being able to loose this weight really took a big hit. For the first time in my life, I feel like I got a monster that I can't handle. I never ... EVER ... felt like there was something I just can't do. But this is really doing a number on me. So please keep the support coming. I really need it right now.

Update

Not going to my meeting tomorrow. Got kinda busy all of a sudden. Grandma is moving to ATL (Atlanta) and I got recruited to drive her down there. I will resume posting next week. Just didn't want to leave you guys hanging.

-bless

New Tickers

LOL! I had to change my tickers because Sherine told me I was confusing her. I changed my start weight from 317 to 319 (cuz I went up 2 pounds my first week up to 319.2). This way I'm going from my heighest weight ever and veiwing the changes there. That way ya'll won't be confused and mad at me because I'm making you think and pull out calculators. *LOL!*

Updated ticker

This post will be updated every week. I had to go over this again... because it looks like i didn't lose any weight... but i did. I forgot i went up 2 pounds then came back down. But counting from when i started the blog.. I began at 317 and I'm currently clocking at 315.4.

I am down 1 pound this week! ;)

Five pound goal




10% weight loss goal:





Total Weightloss Goal



I'm so excited! And I just can't hide it! Wooooo Hooooo! A sister is back on track! Go me! Go me! Go me! *does the cabbage patch* LOL!

Week Six

I lost that .8 pounds i gained from last week ya'll. I was down 1.6 total. That .8 brought me back to my original weight when I started the blog. When I began I actually gained 2.2 pounds and my highest weight ever was 319.2 pounds. So total... I came down 3.8 pounds. Make any sense?

Anywho... I'm gonna step it up. I think this 317 number is some type of plateau for me. I need to take the exercise up a notch. It doesn't help that I didn't exercise last week either. *whistles nervously* LOL!

Man, I was supposed to start dance classes today, but my friend canceled... yet again. Sooooooooooooo... I'm just going to get up early in the morning tomorrow and hit up the gym.

I'm going to start taking my measurement today... and charting it weekly in a book I bought for that. That should be fun.

Mid-week

It's the middle of the week and it's gorgeous. I love when it gets warm out... but sometimes it's hard for me because I don't want to when it gets hot out. Does anyone else have that issue? Sometimes it's so hot and stuffy outside... that you just don't want to feel uncomfortable by eating a bunch of food. I'm gonna go for a walk on my lunch break. I want to feel the breeze.

Week Five

Ahhhhhhhh... another week. I gained a pound... but I credit it to water weight (i got my friend yesterday morning before I weighted myself). I was expecting it... so I'm cool! It's 75 degrees outside right now. I just got in from doing some errands. I'm about to open the windows and let in the fresh air with the sunshine... and work on cleaning my home while my roomate is still gone. I'm soooooooooooo excited! Because cleaning is exercise... and I'm happy to do it. Plus I'm going to go outside for a walk before the sun goes down! What a beautiful day.

I also went to the market today and bought some fresh produce so I can have some salad this week... since its going to be anywhere from the mid 60's to the low 80's all week! I love spring.

Question on Measurements

Okay, So.. I haven't started doing measurements, but I think I'm gonna start that this week. Someone told me (i forgot who... one of ya'll) where to go get the tape form. My question is do instructions come with it on how you are supposed to take correct measurements... or are you just supposed to wing it. *lol* I wanna make sure I'm doing it right.